I saw him later that day and I asked, "You in a relationship" he replied, "Unfortunately, but that'll end real soon". In my confusion and happiness, I thought he was saying that he WASN'T in a relationship and that he wasn't planning on being single for long because he had met me. Well, in actuality, he had a girlfriend who was a bit older than him, has a 10 year old daughter, and they lived with each other. I didn't find this out until like 2 weeks after we had been messing around, and I really had love for the dude so I didn't end the relationship. It went on for a little over a month but I stopped fucking with him because he had been a little too flaky for me.
About a year later, he and his girlfriend had broke up, and oddly enough it was the summer again lol. We messed around for about a week, then they got back together. Such a surprise! This time, she was pregnant, and I decided to cut off all ties. I wish that shit was still easy to do.
Anyway, another year pasts, its summer, once again, and he finds me on facebook and sends me a message. You know me, I'm nosey, so i'm poking around on his page and looking at pictures and shit. I happen to go to his info and noticed that the shit said he was married! I was so shocked like really? You talked all this shit about her, rode my jock so tough, and you married her. Anyway, we started being 'friends' which consisted of me occasionally saying, "hey" and him replying, "hello beautiful! I love you and I miss you so much". oh ok
Yet another year passes, I can't make this shit up, it's once again summer and he leaves his wife and moves out. She happens to be pregnant with their second child, this time it was a girl. He complained that he didn't feel appreciated, that they never were intimate (except the time that they made the baby I guess lol), and that shit was just fucked up and he married her because she was pregnant with his child.
I went and visited him back in October which was the first time I had saw him in like 2 years. He looked even better than I remember. Had I knew then what I know now, when he kept asking for a kiss and I was refusing (this is back when I was with Claude), I would've done more than just kiss him. Yep, i'm nasty, deal with it.
The whole purpose of this post is because he's single now, and so am I, for the first time since we've re-united as adults. And I don't want him. I have no interest in sparking ANYTHING with him. Not even sex. I guess because he blew me off to many times. Could be because I know he's not faithful. Could also be that I feel as if he's "used". I can't be his first for anything. He's had two children, he's been married, he's shacked up with bitches before, nothing will be new to him...I want someone I can grow with, not someone I have to catch up to.
Eh. *Kanye Shrug*
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