So there's this guy...

When's the last time I've started a post like that huh?? Lol. Well there's this guy named Darrell I've been talking to for a couple of weeks, he's a sweetheart, but there's a couple of things that makes me raise my eyebrows...

First things first, he's an absolute sweetheart. He picked me up from the bus at like 5am, just because he wanted to see me. He will get out of the car just to open the door for me. In a nutshell; he's awesome.

On the other hand, he worries to much (definitely sweats the small stuff). He has a twin, a chick, but he doesn't get along with neither his mother nor his twin (makes me happy I'm an only child). And most importantly, he's still in love w/ his ex. When I say still in love, I mean, "she didn't call me today and she know's today is an important day to me and it upsets me that she didn't think of me enough to call me on a day that she know was a difficult day for me", still in love w/ his ex (this is an actual statement he made, more or less, nothing embellished). I mean, yeah, I figured that there would probably still be some feelings there since they were together off and on for the past 5 years but damn, where they do that at, Gucci??

Sometime last week he said that he wanted to date, but like a day or so afterwards, it hit me; "hasn't this dude just recently (and by recently I mean within the past 8 months) just got out a major ass 5 year relationship"?? So me being the genius that I am, I proposed that we switch up the plans and simply be cool and work up to possibly having a relationship later once he realizes what he really wants to do w/ his ex (basically, a relationship w/o the title). I wanted my ass (and heart) covered just in case he decided he wanted to go back to his ex...this gives me just enough space to not be fully involved.

Anyway, he agreed, and here we are a week later and he makes the statement, "yeah, I'll talk to her again later so then I'll know whether I'll have a good day or not", um...'cuse me?? I love Claude, that's my man and a hundred grand, but for the most part, this nigga cannot dictate whether imma have a good day or not. If someone can dictate whether you're smiling, or having a shitty day, by only one conversation that person plays a big role in your life

"...you can miss me w/ all that"

Uh, hm. Well, I like him, but it's shit like that and a couple of other things that isn't worth mentioning that worry me about him. At this point I'm wondering should I even stick around for the inevitable...