So I'm watching this series on YouTube named RoomieLoverFriend (go check it out). There is a scene where Tamiko flies into a jealous rage because she heard her Roomie/Lover/Friend Jayson having loud and orgasmic sex with another woman barely 48 hours after they had sex AND let the chick eat some food that she sat aside for him to eat. She goes off and he grabs her and throws her on the couch to restrain her, then they start to making out. Of course this led to sex, because that's what Roomie/Lovers/Friends do!
Anyway, it got me to reminiscing. I miss that cakey shit
*Cue J-Nash: Cupcaking*
As I stated in previous blog posts, that kissing shit is reserved for a select few. Don't ask why, it's just the way I'm hardwired.
I'm not sure if I ever mentioned the latest to join the group of "fragmented and unaccomplished " relationships...lets just call him D because I don't wanna put him out there like that. Met him up at State like 2 years ago but nothin ever came into fruition because of all the confusing shit that went on at that time AND he was fresh out of a 3 yr relationship. Plus, whenever he said something it was almost always on some sex shit.
Around the end of July, he sent me a DM asking why nothing ever happened between us. I mentioned the relationship thing and he said he understood. Who could blame me? I didn't have anything going on with anyone (cut off communication with Married Man/Rell possibly 16 hours before) so I gave him my number and told him to txt me.
We had great rapport, and when we chilled, we kissed, we had a lot of fun. You can kinda guess that since im writing this that shit changed. Conversations lost their natural fluidity, our bi-weekly chill sessions were cancelled and never rescheduled and when we did tlk it seemed like I was really doing most of the interacting.
I believe I'm starting to become jaded (some can say that I am already) because as soon as, and I mean within the 1st 2days, if I feel I'm putting in more than 50%; I shut down. I don't txt them, I don't call them, I don't tweet them. I WILL not be the one who initiates communication again until i feel that its more of a mutal thing...and that's were he and I am right now.
I think I quite possibly might be getting sick if the bullshit in general...bring on the cow shit.
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